I myself am a millennial woman continually reckoning with my own messiness, and trying to feel more wholly myself. I am still figuring out what it means to be White, second-generation, economically privileged, broke, straight-sized, and lumpy - all at the same time. I am also on a recovery journey from disordered eating, and from the systems (e.g. diet culture, anti-fat bias, patriarchy, White supremacy) that reinforce ED’s. Things that help me feel whole include: participating in my own psychotherapy, parenting my dog-son, creating art, watching reality TV, spending time outdoors, laughing with friends until my abs hurt, and eating ice cream with rainbow sprinkles.